1 more day.

as this is my last day here in the DdotC... i'm going to just say how i truly feel about the people i'm going to miss... yes... i will actually reveal the list of the 10 ppl i'm actually going to miss... lol...

in no particular order.... hahaha... just kidding... it is in a particular order... i wont say how... but just know it is... xD

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Steven-

ur super, ur awesome, ur smart, ur funny, ur talented, ur creative, ur cute, that's gay, in a way, i'll miss u, straight up, high school was fun, much more, because of you, i can't put, into words, how much, you have, changed my life, so i'll, just post, incoherent, words, that, actually, spell, out, something... okay... enough of that... but seriously... ur amazing duuude.... and thats one large pencil... thanks for still being my friend even though i sorta kinda had a major crush on u and was a really intense friend... i loved the vid u and john made... i'll miss u like crazy... ur one of the friends i have that totally make my life interesting... u introduce me to soo much cool new music... u single-handedly revitilized my love of the o.c.... thank you for all the awesome advice... thanks for listening to my seemingly endless strife over whether to go to nyc or to san francisco for college... thank you for letting me copy your notes... thank you for giving me so many rides to the metro... cdc was so much fun... thanks for sharing your kid with me that one time... well few times... and thanks for making me laugh uncontrollably [and justin] when u said that, "i WOULD know how to decorate the fort cause im gay"... not your exact words, but they were around that... be sure to keep in touch... cause i'll need someone to save me from the insanity that will most surely ensue whenever i return home and be forced to face my mother... good luck at umd... don't allow urself to get too stressed out.


AJ-

omg... u and i were like destined to be friends... tho u totally were relunctant to give me the time of day freshman year... ionno if u remember, but we first met in mr holmer's class... u sat in front of the person who sat on the right side of me... and u were like super quiet... u didnt talk to anyone... then one day, i found u outside during lunch... and i sat with u... and tried to be friends... but u werent trying to talk to me... so everyday for like a month i sat outside with u druing lunch... until u finally warmed up to me... we've had our ups and downs... i've hurt ur feelings, you've hurt mine... but all in all... we keeping coming back to being friends again... as much as i hate to admit this... you're like the cloest bestfriend i have... even more than courtney... like really... u kno so much about me that many others dont kno... and same goes for stuff i kno about u... im going to miss u sooo soo much... i'll never be able to replace u... and im not even going to pretend like i can or want to... i wanna kno that whenever i come back home, you'll be right there... its wierd... cause like, i could easily lie and say we've been friends since the sandbox... ppl wouldn't ask questions... we're just that cool in my mind... never change aj... or at least not so much that i cant recognize who u are... lol... ur perfect just the way u are... ur my friend... ur a dork... i love u.... and i mean that... but not that way... lol... w.e... u kno what i mean.




nate & sarah-

u two are like... the coolest couple i kno... nate, though you are a self-centered, selfish, thoughtless a-hole... i love u... ur always there for me no matter what... tho it always includes some sort of drama... ur always looking out for me... even when u don't have to... senior year went by way to fast... i wish we had a little more time to connect... i'm going to miss u... and isnt it sooo completely freaky we're going to the same school, just in different states... lol... keep in touch loserface... cause if not... i will most definitely cry... and when i cry, i CRY... and to u sarah... the girl who's always available to listen to my issues, to laugh with, to ride in cars late at night with the windows down, stealing signs, dancing in parking lots, falling asleep in lawns, crashing parties, catching concerts, singing in the back of limos, making fun of nate, openly hating Jamelia, i love u... and i'll miss u... however... i will see u during spring break when we go to cananda... i cant wait... it will most surely be awesome... =]]]


John-

what can i say about u... well i can start by saying u were and could very well be an emotional mess... but i love u so much for that... and this is going to sound bad... i kno it is... but u made me think, 'gosh, my situation could be so much worse... just look at john'... im not saying that nearly as mean as it sounds... but yah, u kept me looking at the brighter side of things... tho u could be overwhelming... i kno i can be too... so we mesh well in that sense... u give the best hugs... and u have become like honesly one of the most 'i dont care what ppl think of me' people i kno... tho the reality is u do... you bring much to the table... ur an awesome conversationalist... and i'm going to miss ur constant 'black jokes' at my expense... ur the coolest german i kno... now go drink ur milk, and i'll video chat u later... btw... no matter how much distance is between us... we'll always have 'The Box'... =]


Courtney-

omg... we have been through sooo much together... we have known each other since 1st grade... been best friends since 7th grade... you're the only person i call on the phone to talk to... and the only person i accept calls from excitedly... we have been eachother's shoulder to cry on on several occassions... i love that we have movie days once a month... i love that ur family loves me... and that mine loves urs... i love that ur dog scares me... i love that ur not afraid to slap me... i love that ur not afraid to let me slap u... i love that we can share sushi [well, u get chicken and onion rings] and we can just forget about all of this 'moving away to college' stress... i love that i'll see u today... i love that i'll give u a very big hug... i love that we won't cry... i love that we'll laugh... i love that we'll say 'see you later' instead of goodbye.... i love that i love u... every bit of you.... and i love that u chose to go to rhode island for college so we could be closer [well, we would have been closer if i were going to nyc], even tho u wanted to go to North Carolina... i love that even though im the most annoying person you kno... at the end of the day, u still love me and accept me for exactly who i am... and i love that we were able to spend everyday this summer together... in cubicles... but together nonetheless... &hearts bestfriend.


Jackie-

i have no real idea why i'm even listing you up here with these people... yes of course i love u... yes of course our mother's have been bestfriends since grade school and they are both now like 52... and yes of course i consider u my cousin and my bestfriend... but honestly... u live like 30m from my college... lol... i find it hilarious that like, u came to dc to go to college to be closer to me... but now im leaving out to san francisco... so it's like we're back to square one... lol... maybe sometime in the future we'll get it together... ur a beautiful young woman, and i look up to u soo soo much... i'm so glad ur a year ahead of me, so i can get a sort of glimpse at what to expect... and i can have someone close to me who can offer useful advice and be able to sympathize with me freshman year jitters... i love u j... more than you'll ever know...



Amadu-

you know something... im mad at you... yes... im very mad at you... because you just up and left without calling me to tell me goodbye or that you were even leaving... i had to hear from kishan... and thats just not right... we've been friends since freshman year... and have sat next to each other in band every year since then... well except junior year... and senior year... ok... so i guess not every year... damn u mr bickel for seperating us... neways... you are one of the dorkiest people i kno... and u understand ur a dork... and u embrace it wholeheartedly... you have unique tastes in music... and like steven, u expose me to some amazing bands i wouldnt have ever heard of otherwise... u tolerate my constant african jokes at ur expense... ur the most chivalrous person i kno... ur intelligent... ur funny... and ur an amazing friend... and im sad that i didnt get to say goodbye on the day that u left... but im glad we got to hang out often over the summer... and u just don't know how good it made me feel when u came to my graduation party... though i felt it was lame beyond belief... u kept it fun and exciting... thanks for being a friend amadu... i'll miss u... but i kno we'll keep in touch... and i'll see u when i see u... =]



Sean-

omg... what can i say... ur hilarious... u kept me laughing throughout junior and senior year... and i loved every bit of it... im so upset at the fact that u were in summer college at hampton pretty much all summer and i didnt get to talk to you or see you... but i know that with effort we'll keep in touch... ur the funniest person i know... and ur the most caring person i know... u are someone who keeps me grounded... and keeps me from getting myself down... u help me to love myself... i think we all have people in our lives that really make an impact on us, so much so that no matter whats going on in our life, no matter how far the distance, no matter how much time has passed... that we can always say, wow... that person means alot to me... i can rely on them for whatever... and for me... you my friend... are that person... you're one of the only people i plan on calling before i board my 7hour flight to california... there are only 3 people i will be calling... and not to make it seem like its this big event or anything... but i just want to make sure u understand how much our friendship means to me... and how high regard i hold for u... i hope to one day see you in a hollywood comedy... accepting a tony award for your dramatic role in 'Roots: the musical'... i can't wait to be at your oscar party toasting it up with orlando bloom... and canoodling with rihanna... sean... don't forget me... cause i most surely wont forget you.



Olivia-

giiiiirl. what can i say about u... lol... you are a firecracker... you are tall like a giraffe... you make me feel special... and not the slow kind... i love ur mom... she loves me... thank you for always being there for me even when i wasn't always there for u... thank you for always saving me the first dance at dance marathon... thanks for always being the first one to give me a smile and a warm hug whenever i stepped in to Elizabeth Seton High School... thanks for always being genuine... thanks for accepting my faults and showing me that they can also be strengths... thank you for always making me feel like i held a special place in your heart though i didnt deserve it... thank you so so so much... you just don't know... i appreciate you so much... and with you at Deleware State, and me on the opposite coast... i pray that our connection never fades... you have my number... and i have yours... and you better believe i will be calling you at 2a my time [ie, 5a ur time] to wanna chat about what an amazing night i'd just had. i love you olivia roxanne croxton... and i always will... and my last thank you is thank you for not getting upset with me for screwing your boyfriend [now ex]... and for those of u reading this... i didnt know they even knew each other at the time... so to answer ur questions... im NOT a whore skank b-tch. peace & love olivia.


now with all that said... there are others not listed... i understand that... but to those people... i'll say this... i valued our friendships... as deep or as shallow as they may have been... but these 10 ppl had something special with me... and what i had with alot of you were simply friendships of convience... and to the rest... i realized that though we were close... i have grown to no longer need you there to depend on... i can stand on my own... and not feel the least bit sad or guilty about it... to these 10 people i've listed... i pray we can keep in touch... and we hang out alot during breaks... and that im at each one of you guys' weddings, graduations [where possible], and at the birth of ur first children... i wish i could have made even the smallest bit of impact on u guys, cause u ten have certainly made a large impact on me... i love u guys.

-robb-